Pardon my language, but….

You have made me feel like A piece of shit. You have reduced me to dirt. I'm destroying myself Because I am so  Upset Disturbed Unnerved Unsettled Over all that you've said. I'm sorry. But I feel so wretched. You always do this. Every time we are intimate, You treat me poorly days after. What…

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Unconventional 

When I was a young girl, not once did I ever imagine being where I am now in terms of relationships. Not once did I imagine falling for a creature twenty years my senior. But I was always one for the unconventional arrangements. They fascinated me and inspired me in my writing.  However, it never…

I’m starving.

I truly am. My hands shake. My stomach aches. My mind grows fuzzy. I desperately desire to consume sustanence, yet I am unable to. Everything turns to ash before I taste it. Before I can savor it. Before I can find comfort in the simplest of bits.  I can pick up the smallest thing. It…

Why do you tell me you hate me?

When we kiss, When we hold each other, When our hands meet, When we love one another, When we do anything, You always tell me that  You hate me. Am I truly that bad? I wish you wouldn't tell me You hate me. Even if you laugh, Even if you smile, You hate me.

A Cold Bed

My bed is cold. Always cold.  Every night I dread crawling into it. It is unforgiving. When I prepare myself for bed, I find myself procrastinating actually going to bed. As I bind my hair and remove my makeup, I imagine what it would be like if it wasn't so cold. If I could curl…

Enter ramble one

I am no one significant. I am no one at all.  I am just a young 21 year old woman who puts on a front to seem different. I am an assistant manager at a 1.5 million dollar store and manage people older than me. I am not in my age group or in a…