I saw a cat that reminded me of my childhood pet. I felt sad. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I saw a group of girls giggling. Why can’t I be part of that? No one likes me. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I had a nightmare. I woke up in a panic. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I got yelled at. I am a worthless piece of crap. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I was going through the web. I saw an image of a blade. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I got a B on a test. I am so dumb. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I just wanted attention. Or, that is what I was told. Cut. Cut. Cut.

Once upon a time, everything sent me spiraling. Cut. Cut. Cut. I was lost in the ocean. Cut. Cut. Cut. I was drowning. Cut. Cut. Cut. I was stuck. I saw no end in sight. Cut. Cut. Cut. It was an addiction. The only way to feel alive. The only way. Cut. Cut. Cut.

How do I get out? How did I do this? Why am I doing this? What relief does this bring? Cut. Cut. CUT.

I need out! I need to stop this madness! Cut. Cut. Cut. I am lost. I am lost. I do not know my way out. I deserve this. Cut. Cut. CUT.

There is no way out. There is no relief. There is no hope. There is nothing left for you. Cut. Cut. Cut.

I found your embrace. You held me tight. I was hurt. So were you. But you gave me strength. I found a rock. No cuts were found. There were no swirls. No monsters. I wanted this. I wanted this. I wanted this. No cuts. No cuts. No cuts.

I could do this. Cut. Cut.

I was not going to loose. Cut. Cut.

I wanted to go down this road. Cut.

I was going to climb up. You were my lifeboat. Cut.

But I was the one to lead the way.

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