5 Things

I have found a few things to do that make me feel slightly better about life and about myself. Just a few things. Some days, they are all I need to get through it all. Brush my hair - I have long, long hair. It goes to the middle of my butt. It is a…

Get up, Chandra

Get up. Get up. Get up. You can do this. Come on. Get up. Come on. Please? Stop sleeping so much.  Come on. Let's do something. Get up. You can do this. Brush your hair. You have lovely long hair. You got this. Please get up.  But I just feel so drained. What is the…

Do Not Walk Behind Me

The other day, we were walking through Target. Looking at the various displays. Admiring the exciting temptations that are available. We had the goal of exchanging a piece for our GoPro camera. It was a simple adventure. We were walking. I thought nothing of it. I was a few paces behind him. He was looking…

The way the sun hits your face, Makes my heart jump up a pace. That little smile you give me, Becomes all that I can even see.

Every time I took a blade to my flesh, the world went quiet as could be. My demons leaned over my shoulder, they encouraged me.   The world was so silent. Except for their call. I heard nothing except them. I was giving them all.   Once I felt that sharp sting, the world exploded.…

A Journey to Self Love

I have never been the prettiest. I was never popular. Never the skinniest. I was not the one you would pay attention to. I had no pride. Nothing. I was the socially awkward, mean, and fairly weird girl. I was moody and arrogant. I was so caught up in my web of misery. My self…

It has been two years since I last fell into that dark pit. It was a dangerous area. It is still one that I must tiptoe around. I climbed out of it, but there are still times, two years later, that I fear falling back. Two years ago, I mutilated myself for what I hope…

Soulmate?

You are mine. And I am yours. You are your own. And I am my own. We coexist and are one. We complete and compliment one another. And, in every life, every variation, I choose you.