Shade of Sadness

The world is drenched in darkness. There is only screaming, screaming in my head. The only shade known is that of sadness. There is no light to around. It is just dark.  

You need to

Get up. Get up. Get up. You can do this. Come on. Get up. Come on. Please? Stop sleeping so much. Come on. Let's do something. Get up. You can do this. Brush your hair. Brush your teeth. Wash your face. You got this. Please get up.  But I just feel so drained. What is…

Demons Call

Every time I took a blade to my flesh, the world went quiet as could be. My demons leaned over my shoulder, they encouraged me.   The world was so silent. Except for their call. I heard nothing except them. I was giving them all.   Once I felt that sharp sting, the world exploded.…

Despair

My despair has expanded. I am unable to do anything right. Or, so I feel.  My depression is tickling the curve of my ear. I can not hear the words. I can just feel the breathing.  There is self doubt. I just feel mildly insecure. Not painfully. Just mildly.  The stress and lack of sleep…

Afflicted

My mind grows and shrinks.  My life has skated along the edge. I have been to countless brinks. Always, I have come back.   Once, I would give it all To get to that ledge, feel the high. I would push myself to fall. I desired. I was addicted.   My mind was afflicted. All…

A Battle to Get Ready

I haul my sorry self from my makeshift bed every day. My feet guide me through my apartment. The sleep is still clinging to my eyes, and the bags display the lack of genuine rest. The river of hair I possess is wild. I battle the demons that stroll around casually. Ignore their whispers. The…

A Cold Bed

My bed is cold. Always cold.  Every night I dread crawling into it. It is unforgiving. When I prepare myself for bed, I find myself procrastinating actually going to bed. As I bind my hair and remove my makeup, I imagine what it would be like if it wasn't so cold. If I could curl…