For the first time in years, I saw you in person.
her thoughts often left.
Are all they are. Meaningless. Pointless. But they feel strong. Impact more than they should. Make you curl in on yourself. Emotionally compromised and insecure in the darkness. You cry to yourself. Will yourself to not feel. Feel nothing.. If you feel nothing, then you are better than these silly moments.
Damn. Damn. Damn. Why can I not let it be?
every year I delude myself...
No more snoozing. No more staring at the ceiling.
Is there anyone out there that knows?
Have you ever changed something in your life that you can not stop thinking about? Not with regret, just constant thinking. It consumes your mind when you least expect it. You're not obsessing over it. Yet. You just can not stop it from randomly popping up.
How can I do more? How can I do more for you? I ask myself this daily. I want to do more for you, for us. But, how? I long to provide. I long to do more. I am trying. It kills me how tired you are. How worn out you are. I want to…
Have you ever just felt... Stretched thin? Spread out? The world gets demanding. And you only have two hands. You're straining, straining to hold it together. For how much longer? How much more can you try to juggle? Before you snap. Before you throw it all to the floor and walk away. You are struggling.…