Silly Moments

Are all they are. Meaningless. Pointless. But they feel strong. Impact more than they should. Make you curl in on yourself. Emotionally compromised and insecure in the darkness. You cry to yourself. Will yourself to not feel. Feel nothing.. If you feel nothing, then you are better than these silly moments.


I can still hear beyond the static.

I can still hear their voices. So loud. So loud. Calling. Crying. Screaming out to me. Every second grows harder. My desire is to listen. But. I can not let that happen. If I give in. I will. Fall. Back into that dark pit. Go around and around in circles. I do not want to…


Even after a little over two years, I sometimes feel the temptation. My arm got a little cut. A small little ouchie. Nothing to fret over. Yet. Moments later.... I felt it. The excitement. The anticipation. The need for more. The demons giggled. Giggled. They tried to pet my hair.  The darkness skittered on the…


Is this what it is like to Tremble on the edge? Is this what it is like to Freeze before the plunge? Is this what it is like to Be lost and not found? Is this what it is like to Give into the feeling of falling?


My mind grows and shrinks.  My life has skated along the edge. I have been to countless brinks. Always, I have come back.   Once, I would give it all To get to that ledge, feel the high. I would push myself to fall. I desired. I was addicted.   My mind was afflicted. All…