Every Year

every year I delude myself...

temptation

Even after a little over two years, I sometimes feel the temptation. My arm got a little cut. A small little ouchie. Nothing to fret over. Yet. Moments later.... I felt it. The excitement. The anticipation. The need for more. The demons giggled. Giggled. They tried to pet my hair.  The darkness skittered on the…

Demons Call

Every time I took a blade to my flesh, the world went quiet as could be. My demons leaned over my shoulder, they encouraged me.   The world was so silent. Except for their call. I heard nothing except them. I was giving them all.   Once I felt that sharp sting, the world exploded.…

Afflicted

My mind grows and shrinks.  My life has skated along the edge. I have been to countless brinks. Always, I have come back.   Once, I would give it all To get to that ledge, feel the high. I would push myself to fall. I desired. I was addicted.   My mind was afflicted. All…